STAVE TWO.
THE FIRST OF
THE THREE SPIRITS.
When
Scrooge awoke, it was so dark, that looking out of bed, he could
scarcely distinguish the transparent window from the opaque walls of
his
chamber. He was endeavouring to pierce the darkness with his ferret
eyes, when
the chimes of a neighbouring church struck the four quarters. So he
listened
for the hour.
To his great astonishment
the heavy bell went on from six to seven, and
from seven to eight, and regularly up to twelve; then stopped. Twelve!
It was
past two when he went to bed. The clock was wrong. An icicle must have
got into
the works. Twelve!
He touched the spring of
his repeater, to correct this most preposterous
clock. Its rapid little pulse beat twelve: and stopped.
“Why, it isn’t possible,”
said Scrooge, “that I can have slept through a
whole day and far into another night. It isn’t possible that anything
has
happened to the sun, and this is twelve at noon!”
The idea being an
alarming one, he scrambled out of bed, and groped his
way to the window. He was obliged to rub the frost off with the sleeve
of his
dressing-gown before he could see anything; and could see very little
then. All
he could make out was, that it was still very foggy and extremely cold,
and
that there was no noise of people running to and fro, and making a
great stir,
as there unquestionably would have been if night had beaten off bright
day, and
taken possession of the world. This was a great relief, because “three
days
after sight of this First of Exchange pay to Mr. Ebenezer Scrooge or
his
order,” and so forth, would have become a mere United States’ security
if there
were no days to count by.
Scrooge went to bed
again, and thought, and thought, and thought it over
and over and over, and could make nothing of it. The more he thought,
the more
perplexed he was; and the more he endeavoured not to think, the more he
thought.
Marley’s Ghost bothered
him exceedingly. Every time he resolved within
himself, after mature inquiry, that it was all a dream, his mind flew
back
again, like a strong spring released, to its first position, and
presented the
same problem to be worked all through, “Was it a dream or not?”
Scrooge lay in this state
until the chime had gone three quarters more,
when he remembered, on a sudden, that the Ghost had warned him of a
visitation
when the bell tolled one. He resolved to lie awake until the hour was
passed;
and, considering that he could no more go to sleep than go to Heaven,
this was
perhaps the wisest resolution in his power.
The quarter was so long,
that he was more than once convinced he must
have sunk into a doze unconsciously, and missed the clock. At length it
broke
upon his listening ear.
“Ding, dong!”
“A quarter past,” said
Scrooge, counting.
“Ding, dong!”
“Half-past!” said
Scrooge.
“Ding, dong!”
“A quarter to it,” said
Scrooge.
“Ding, dong!”
“The hour itself,” said
Scrooge, triumphantly, “and nothing else!”
He spoke before the hour
bell sounded, which it now did with a deep,
dull, hollow, melancholy One. Light flashed up in the room upon the
instant,
and the curtains of his bed were drawn.
The curtains of his bed
were drawn aside, I tell you, by a hand. Not the
curtains at his feet, nor the curtains at his back, but those to which
his face
was addressed. The curtains of his bed were drawn aside; and Scrooge,
starting
up into a half-recumbent attitude, found himself face to face with the
unearthly visitor who drew them: as close to it as I am now to you, and
I am
standing in the spirit at your elbow.
It was a strange figure —
like a child: yet not so like a child as like
an old man, viewed through some supernatural medium, which gave him the
appearance of having receded from the view, and being diminished to a
child’s
proportions. Its hair, which hung about its neck and down its back, was
white
as if with age; and yet the face had not a wrinkle in it, and the
tenderest
bloom was on the skin. The arms were very long and muscular; the hands
the
same, as if its hold were of uncommon strength. Its legs and feet, most
delicately formed, were, like those upper members, bare. It wore a
tunic of the
purest white; and round its waist was bound a lustrous belt, the sheen
of which
was beautiful. It held a branch of fresh green holly in its hand; and,
in singular
contradiction of that wintry emblem, had its dress trimmed with summer
flowers.
But the strangest thing about it was, that from the crown of its head
there
sprung a bright clear jet of light, by which all this was visible; and
which
was doubtless the occasion of its using, in its duller moments, a great
extinguisher for a cap, which it now held under its arm.
Even this, though, when
Scrooge looked at it with increasing steadiness,
was not its strangest quality. For as its belt sparkled and
glittered
now in one part and now in another, and what was light one instant, at
another
time was dark, so the figure itself fluctuated in its distinctness:
being now a
thing with one arm, now with one leg, now with twenty legs, now a pair
of legs
without a head, now a head without a body: of which dissolving parts,
no
outline would be visible in the dense gloom wherein they melted away.
And in
the very wonder of this, it would be itself again; distinct and clear
as ever.
“Are you the Spirit, sir,
whose coming was foretold to me?” asked
Scrooge.
“I am!”
The voice was soft and
gentle. Singularly low, as if instead of being so
close beside him, it were at a distance.
“Who, and what are you?”
Scrooge demanded.
“I am the Ghost of
Christmas Past.”
“Long Past?” inquired
Scrooge: observant of its dwarfish stature.
“No. Your past.”
Perhaps, Scrooge could
not have told anybody why, if anybody could have
asked him; but he had a special desire to see the Spirit in his cap;
and begged
him to be covered.
“What!” exclaimed the
Ghost, “would you so soon put out, with worldly
hands, the light I give? Is it not enough that you are one of those
whose
passions made this cap, and force me through whole trains of years to
wear it
low upon my brow!”
Scrooge reverently
disclaimed all intention to offend or any knowledge
of having wilfully “bonneted” the Spirit at any period of his life. He
then
made bold to inquire what business brought him there.
“Your welfare!” said the
Ghost.
Scrooge expressed himself
much obliged, but could not help thinking that
a night of unbroken rest would have been more conducive to that end.
The Spirit
must have heard him thinking, for it said immediately:
“Your reclamation, then.
Take heed!”
It put out its strong
hand as it spoke, and clasped him gently by the
arm.
“Rise! and walk with me!”
It would have been in
vain for Scrooge to plead that the weather and the
hour were not adapted to pedestrian purposes; that bed was warm, and
the
thermometer a long way below freezing; that he was clad but lightly in
his
slippers, dressing-gown, and nightcap; and that he had a cold upon him
at that
time. The grasp, though gentle as a woman’s hand, was not to be
resisted. He
rose: but finding that the Spirit made towards the window, clasped his
robe in
supplication.
“I am a mortal,” Scrooge
remonstrated, “and liable to fall.”
“Bear but a touch of my
hand there,” said the Spirit, laying it
upon his heart, “and you shall be upheld in more than this!”
As the words were spoken,
they passed through the wall, and stood upon
an open country road, with fields on either hand. The city had entirely
vanished. Not a vestige of it was to be seen. The darkness and the mist
had
vanished with it, for it was a clear, cold, winter day, with snow upon
the
ground.
“Good Heaven!” said
Scrooge, clasping his hands together, as he looked
about him. “I was bred in this place. I was a boy here!”
The Spirit gazed upon him
mildly. Its gentle touch, though it had been
light and instantaneous, appeared still present to the old man’s sense
of feeling.
He was conscious of a thousand odours floating in the air, each one
connected
with a thousand thoughts, and hopes, and joys, and cares long, long,
forgotten!
“Your lip is trembling,”
said the Ghost. “And what is that upon your
cheek?”
Scrooge muttered, with an
unusual catching in his voice, that it was a
pimple; and begged the Ghost to lead him where he would.
“You recollect the way?”
inquired the Spirit.
“Remember it!” cried
Scrooge with fervour; “I could walk it blindfold.”
“Strange to have
forgotten it for so many years!” observed the Ghost.
“Let us go on.”
They walked along the
road, Scrooge recognising every gate, and post,
and tree; until a little market-town appeared in the distance, with its
bridge,
its church, and winding river. Some shaggy ponies now were seen
trotting
towards them with boys upon their backs, who called to other boys in
country
gigs and carts, driven by farmers. All these boys were in great
spirits, and
shouted to each other, until the broad fields were so full of merry
music, that
the crisp air laughed to hear it!
“These are but shadows of
the things that have been,” said the Ghost.
“They have no consciousness of us.”
The jocund travellers
came on; and as they came, Scrooge knew and named
them every one. Why was he rejoiced beyond all bounds to see them! Why
did his
cold eye glisten, and his heart leap up as they went past! Why was he
filled
with gladness when he heard them give each other Merry Christmas, as
they
parted at cross-roads and bye-ways, for their several homes! What was
merry
Christmas to Scrooge? Out upon merry Christmas! What good had it ever
done to
him?
“The school is not quite
deserted,” said the Ghost. “A solitary child,
neglected by his friends, is left there still.”
Scrooge said he knew it.
And he sobbed.
They left the high-road,
by a well-remembered lane, and soon approached
a mansion of dull red brick, with a little weathercock-surmounted
cupola, on
the roof, and a bell hanging in it. It was a large house, but one of
broken
fortunes; for the spacious offices were little used, their walls were
damp and
mossy, their windows broken, and their gates decayed. Fowls clucked and
strutted in the stables; and the coach-houses and sheds were over-run
with
grass. Nor was it more retentive of its ancient state, within; for
entering the
dreary hall, and glancing through the open doors of many rooms, they
found them
poorly furnished, cold, and vast. There was an earthy savour in the
air, a
chilly bareness in the place, which associated itself somehow with too
much
getting up by candle-light, and not too much to eat.
They went, the Ghost and
Scrooge, across the hall, to a door at the back
of the house. It opened before them, and disclosed a long, bare,
melancholy
room, made barer still by lines of plain deal forms and desks. At one
of these
a lonely boy was reading near a feeble fire; and Scrooge sat down upon
a form,
and wept to see his poor forgotten self as he used to be.
Not a latent echo in the
house, not a squeak and scuffle from the mice
behind the panelling, not a drip from the half-thawed water-spout in
the dull
yard behind, not a sigh among the leafless boughs of one despondent
poplar, not
the idle swinging of an empty store-house door, no, not a clicking in
the fire,
but fell upon the heart of Scrooge with a softening influence, and gave
a freer
passage to his tears.
The Spirit touched him on
the arm, and pointed to his younger self,
intent upon his reading. Suddenly a man, in foreign garments:
wonderfully real
and distinct to look at: stood outside the window, with an axe stuck in
his
belt, and leading by the bridle an ass laden with wood.
“Why, it’s Ali Baba!”
Scrooge exclaimed in ecstasy. “It’s dear old
honest Ali Baba! Yes, yes, I know! One Christmas time, when yonder
solitary
child was left here all alone, he did come, for the first time,
just
like that. Poor boy! And Valentine,” said Scrooge, “and his wild
brother,
Orson; there they go! And what’s his name, who was put down in his
drawers,
asleep, at the Gate of Damascus; don’t you see him! And the Sultan’s
Groom
turned upside down by the Genii; there he is upon his head! Serve him
right.
I’m glad of it. What business had he to be married to the
Princess!”
To hear Scrooge expending
all the earnestness of his nature on such
subjects, in a most extraordinary voice between laughing and crying;
and to see
his heightened and excited face; would have been a surprise to his
business
friends in the city, indeed.
“There’s the Parrot!”
cried Scrooge. “Green body and yellow tail, with a
thing like a lettuce growing out of the top of his head; there he is!
Poor
Robin Crusoe, he called him, when he came home again after sailing
round the
island. ‘Poor Robin Crusoe, where have you been, Robin Crusoe?’ The man
thought
he was dreaming, but he wasn’t. It was the Parrot, you know. There goes
Friday,
running for his life to the little creek! Halloa! Hoop! Halloo!”
Then, with a rapidity of
transition very foreign to his usual character,
he said, in pity for his former self, “Poor boy!” and cried again.
“I wish,” Scrooge
muttered, putting his hand in his pocket, and looking
about him, after drying his eyes with his cuff: “but it’s too late
now.”
“What is the matter?”
asked the Spirit.
“Nothing,” said Scrooge.
“Nothing. There was a boy singing a Christmas
Carol at my door last night. I should like to have given him something:
that’s
all.”
The Ghost smiled
thoughtfully, and waved its hand: saying as it did so,
“Let us see another Christmas!”
Scrooge’s former self
grew larger at the words, and the room became a
little darker and more dirty. The panels shrunk, the windows cracked;
fragments
of plaster fell out of the ceiling, and the naked laths were shown
instead; but
how all this was brought about, Scrooge knew no more than you do. He
only knew
that it was quite correct; that everything had happened so; that there
he was,
alone again, when all the other boys had gone home for the jolly
holidays.
He was not reading now,
but walking up and down despairingly. Scrooge
looked at the Ghost, and with a mournful shaking of his head, glanced
anxiously
towards the door.
It opened; and a little
girl, much younger than the boy, came darting
in, and putting her arms about his neck, and often kissing him,
addressed him
as her “Dear, dear brother.”
“I have come to bring you
home, dear brother!” said the child, clapping
her tiny hands, and bending down to laugh. “To bring you home, home,
home!”
“Home, little Fan?”
returned the boy.
“Yes!” said the child,
brimful of glee. “Home, for good and all. Home,
for ever and ever. Father is so much kinder than he used to be, that
home’s
like Heaven! He spoke so gently to me one dear night when I was going
to bed,
that I was not afraid to ask him once more if you might come home; and
he said
Yes, you should; and sent me in a coach to bring you. And you’re to be
a man!”
said the child, opening her eyes, “and are never to come back here; but
first,
we’re to be together all the Christmas long, and have the merriest time
in all
the world.”
“You are quite a woman,
little Fan!” exclaimed the boy.
She clapped her hands and
laughed, and tried to touch his head; but
being too little, laughed again, and stood on tiptoe to embrace him.
Then she
began to drag him, in her childish eagerness, towards the door; and he,
nothing
loth to go, accompanied her.
A terrible voice in the
hall cried, “Bring down Master Scrooge’s box,
there!” and in the hall appeared the schoolmaster himself, who glared
on Master
Scrooge with a ferocious condescension, and threw him into a dreadful
state of
mind by shaking hands with him. He then conveyed him and his sister
into the
veriest old well of a shivering best-parlour that ever was seen, where
the maps
upon the wall, and the celestial and terrestrial globes in the windows,
were
waxy with cold. Here he produced a decanter of curiously light wine,
and a
block of curiously heavy cake, and administered instalments of those
dainties
to the young people: at the same time, sending out a meagre servant to
offer a
glass of “something” to the postboy, who answered that he thanked the
gentleman,
but if it was the same tap as he had tasted before, he had rather not.
Master
Scrooge’s trunk being by this time tied on to the top of the chaise,
the
children bade the schoolmaster good-bye right willingly; and getting
into it,
drove gaily down the garden-sweep: the quick wheels dashing the
hoar-frost and
snow from off the dark leaves of the evergreens like spray.
“Always a delicate
creature, whom a breath might have withered,” said
the Ghost. “But she had a large heart!”
“So she had,” cried
Scrooge. “You’re right. I will not gainsay it,
Spirit. God forbid!”
“She died a woman,” said
the Ghost, “and had, as I think, children.”
“One child,” Scrooge
returned.
“True,” said the Ghost.
“Your nephew!”
Scrooge seemed uneasy in
his mind; and answered briefly, “Yes.”
Although they had but
that moment left the school behind them, they were
now in the busy thoroughfares of a city, where shadowy passengers
passed and
repassed; where shadowy carts and coaches battled for the way, and all
the
strife and tumult of a real city were. It was made plain enough, by the
dressing of the shops, that here too it was Christmas time again; but
it was
evening, and the streets were lighted up.
The Ghost stopped at a
certain warehouse door, and asked Scrooge if he
knew it.
“Know it!” said Scrooge.
“Was I apprenticed here!”
They went in. At sight of
an old gentleman in a Welsh wig, sitting
behind such a high desk, that if he had been two inches taller he must
have
knocked his head against the ceiling, Scrooge cried in great
excitement:
“Why, it’s old Fezziwig!
Bless his heart; it’s Fezziwig alive again!”
Old Fezziwig laid down
his pen, and looked up at the clock, which
pointed to the hour of seven. He rubbed his hands; adjusted his
capacious
waistcoat; laughed all over himself, from his shoes to his organ of
benevolence; and called out in a comfortable, oily, rich, fat, jovial
voice:
“Yo ho, there! Ebenezer!
Dick!”
Scrooge’s former self,
now grown a young man, came briskly in,
accompanied by his fellow-’prentice.
“Dick Wilkins, to be
sure!” said Scrooge to the Ghost. “Bless me, yes.
There he is. He was very much attached to me, was Dick. Poor Dick!
Dear, dear!”
“Yo ho, my boys!” said
Fezziwig. “No more work to-night. Christmas Eve,
Dick. Christmas, Ebenezer! Let’s have the shutters up,” cried old
Fezziwig,
with a sharp clap of his hands, “before a man can say Jack Robinson!”
You wouldn’t believe how
those two fellows went at it! They charged into
the street with the shutters — one, two, three — had ’em up in their
places — four,
five, six — barred ’em and pinned ’em — seven, eight, nine — and came
back
before you could have got to twelve, panting like race-horses.
“Hilli-ho!” cried old
Fezziwig, skipping down from the high desk, with
wonderful agility. “Clear away, my lads, and let’s have lots of room
here!
Hilli-ho, Dick! Chirrup, Ebenezer!”
Clear away! There was
nothing they wouldn’t have cleared away, or
couldn’t have cleared away, with old Fezziwig looking on. It was done
in a
minute. Every movable was packed off, as if it were dismissed from
public life
for evermore; the floor was swept and watered, the lamps were trimmed,
fuel was
heaped upon the fire; and the warehouse was as snug, and warm, and dry,
and
bright a ball-room, as you would desire to see upon a winter’s night.
In came a fiddler with a
music-book, and went up to the lofty desk, and
made an orchestra of it, and tuned like fifty stomach-aches. In came
Mrs.
Fezziwig, one vast substantial smile. In came the three Miss Fezziwigs,
beaming
and lovable. In came the six young followers whose hearts they broke.
In came
all the young men and women employed in the business. In came the
housemaid,
with her cousin, the baker. In came the cook, with her brother’s
particular
friend, the milkman. In came the boy from over the way, who was
suspected of
not having board enough from his master; trying to hide himself behind
the girl
from next door but one, who was proved to have had her ears pulled by
her
mistress. In they all came, one after another; some shyly, some boldly,
some
gracefully, some awkwardly, some pushing, some pulling; in they all
came,
anyhow and everyhow. Away they all went, twenty couple at once; hands
half
round and back again the other way; down the middle and up again; round
and
round in various stages of affectionate grouping; old top couple always
turning
up in the wrong place; new top couple starting off again, as soon as
they got
there; all top couples at last, and not a bottom one to help them! When
this
result was brought about, old Fezziwig, clapping his hands to stop the
dance,
cried out, “Well done!” and the fiddler plunged his hot face into a pot
of
porter, especially provided for that purpose. But scorning rest, upon
his
reappearance, he instantly began again, though there were no dancers
yet, as if
the other fiddler had been carried home, exhausted, on a shutter, and
he were a
bran-new man resolved to beat him out of sight, or perish.
There were more dances,
and there were forfeits, and more dances, and
there was cake, and there was negus, and there was a great piece of
Cold Roast,
and there was a great piece of Cold Boiled, and there were mince-pies,
and
plenty of beer. But the great effect of the evening came after the
Roast and
Boiled, when the fiddler (an artful dog, mind! The sort of man who knew
his
business better than you or I could have told it him!) struck up “Sir
Roger de
Coverley.” Then old Fezziwig stood out to dance with Mrs. Fezziwig. Top
couple,
too; with a good stiff piece of work cut out for them; three or four
and twenty
pair of partners; people who were not to be trifled with; people who would
dance, and had no notion of walking.
But if they had been
twice as many — ah, four times — old Fezziwig would
have been a match for them, and so would Mrs. Fezziwig. As to her,
she
was worthy to be his partner in every sense of the term. If that’s not
high
praise, tell me higher, and I’ll use it. A positive light appeared to
issue
from Fezziwig’s calves. They shone in every part of the dance like
moons. You
couldn’t have predicted, at any given time, what would have become of
them
next. And when old Fezziwig and Mrs. Fezziwig had gone all through the
dance;
advance and retire, both hands to your partner, bow and curtsey,
corkscrew,
thread-the-needle, and back again to your place; Fezziwig “cut” — cut
so
deftly, that he appeared to wink with his legs, and came upon his feet
again
without a stagger.
When the clock struck
eleven, this domestic ball broke up. Mr. and Mrs.
Fezziwig took their stations, one on either side of the door, and
shaking hands
with every person individually as he or she went out, wished him or her
a Merry
Christmas. When everybody had retired but the two ’prentices, they did
the same
to them; and thus the cheerful voices died away, and the lads were left
to
their beds; which were under a counter in the back-shop.
During the whole of this
time, Scrooge had acted like a man out of his
wits. His heart and soul were in the scene, and with his former self.
He
corroborated everything, remembered everything, enjoyed everything, and
underwent the strangest agitation. It was not until now, when the
bright faces
of his former self and Dick were turned from them, that he remembered
the
Ghost, and became conscious that it was looking full upon him, while
the light
upon its head burnt very clear.
Mr. Fezziwig’s Ball
“A small matter,” said the Ghost,
“to make these silly folks so full of gratitude.”
“Small!” echoed Scrooge.
The Spirit signed to him
to listen to the two apprentices, who were
pouring out their hearts in praise of Fezziwig: and when he had done
so, said,
“Why! Is it not? He has
spent but a few pounds of your mortal money:
three or four perhaps. Is that so much that he deserves this praise?”
“It isn’t that,” said
Scrooge, heated by the remark, and speaking
unconsciously like his former, not his latter, self. “It isn’t that,
Spirit. He
has the power to render us happy or unhappy; to make our service light
or
burdensome; a pleasure or a toil. Say that his power lies in words and
looks;
in things so slight and insignificant that it is impossible to add and
count
’em up: what then? The happiness he gives, is quite as great as if it
cost a
fortune.”
He felt the Spirit’s
glance, and stopped.
“What is the matter?”
asked the Ghost.
“Nothing particular,”
said Scrooge.
“Something, I think?” the
Ghost insisted.
“No,” said Scrooge, “No.
I should like to be able to say a word or two
to my clerk just now. That’s all.”
His former self turned
down the lamps as he gave utterance to the wish;
and Scrooge and the Ghost again stood side by side in the open air.
“My time grows short,”
observed the Spirit. “Quick!”
This was not addressed to
Scrooge, or to any one whom he could see, but
it produced an immediate effect. For again Scrooge saw himself. He was
older
now; a man in the prime of life. His face had not the harsh and rigid
lines of
later years; but it had begun to wear the signs of care and avarice.
There was
an eager, greedy, restless motion in the eye, which showed the passion
that had
taken root, and where the shadow of the growing tree would fall.
He was not alone, but sat
by the side of a fair young girl in a
mourning-dress: in whose eyes there were tears, which sparkled in the
light
that shone out of the Ghost of Christmas Past.
“It matters little,” she
said, softly. “To you, very little. Another
idol has displaced me; and if it can cheer and comfort you in time to
come, as
I would have tried to do, I have no just cause to grieve.”
“What Idol has displaced
you?” he rejoined.
“A golden one.”
“This is the even-handed
dealing of the world!” he said. “There is
nothing on which it is so hard as poverty; and there is nothing it
professes to
condemn with such severity as the pursuit of wealth!”
“You fear the world too
much,” she answered, gently. “All your other
hopes have merged into the hope of being beyond the chance of its
sordid
reproach. I have seen your nobler aspirations fall off one by one,
until the
master-passion, Gain, engrosses you. Have I not?”
“What then?” he retorted.
“Even if I have grown so much wiser, what
then? I am not changed towards you.”
She shook her head.
“Am I?”
“Our contract is an old
one. It was made when we were both poor and
content to be so, until, in good season, we could improve our worldly
fortune
by our patient industry. You are changed. When it was made, you
were
another man.”
“I was a boy,” he said
impatiently.
“Your own feeling tells
you that you were not what you are,” she
returned. “I am. That which promised happiness when we were one in
heart, is
fraught with misery now that we are two. How often and how keenly I
have
thought of this, I will not say. It is enough that I have
thought of it,
and can release you.”
“Have I ever sought
release?”
“In words. No. Never.”
“In what, then?”
“In a changed nature; in
an altered spirit; in another atmosphere of
life; another Hope as its great end. In everything that made my love of
any
worth or value in your sight. If this had never been between us,” said
the
girl, looking mildly, but with steadiness, upon him; “tell me, would
you seek
me out and try to win me now? Ah, no!”
He seemed to yield to the
justice of this supposition, in spite of
himself. But he said with a struggle, “You think not.”
“I would gladly think
otherwise if I could,” she answered, “Heaven
knows! When I have learned a Truth like this, I know how strong
and
irresistible it must be. But if you were free to-day, to-morrow,
yesterday, can
even I believe that you would choose a dowerless girl — you who, in
your very
confidence with her, weigh everything by Gain: or, choosing her, if for
a
moment you were false enough to your one guiding principle to do so, do
I not
know that your repentance and regret would surely follow? I do; and I
release
you. With a full heart, for the love of him you once were.”
He was about to speak;
but with her head turned from him, she resumed.
“You may — the memory of
what is past half makes me hope you will — have
pain in this. A very, very brief time, and you will dismiss the
recollection of
it, gladly, as an unprofitable dream, from which it happened well that
you
awoke. May you be happy in the life you have chosen!”
She left him, and they
parted.
“Spirit!” said Scrooge,
“show me no more! Conduct me home. Why do you
delight to torture me?”
“One shadow more!”
exclaimed the Ghost.
“No more!” cried Scrooge.
“No more. I don’t wish to see it. Show me no
more!”
But the relentless Ghost
pinioned him in both his arms, and forced him
to observe what happened next.
They were in another
scene and place; a room, not very large or
handsome, but full of comfort. Near to the winter fire sat a beautiful
young
girl, so like that last that Scrooge believed it was the same, until he
saw her,
now a comely matron, sitting opposite her daughter. The noise in this
room was
perfectly tumultuous, for there were more children there, than Scrooge
in his
agitated state of mind could count; and, unlike the celebrated herd in
the
poem, they were not forty children conducting themselves like one, but
every
child was conducting itself like forty. The consequences were
uproarious beyond
belief; but no one seemed to care; on the contrary, the mother and
daughter
laughed heartily, and enjoyed it very much; and the latter, soon
beginning to
mingle in the sports, got pillaged by the young brigands most
ruthlessly. What
would I not have given to be one of them! Though I never could have
been so
rude, no, no! I wouldn’t for the wealth of all the world have crushed
that
braided hair, and torn it down; and for the precious little shoe, I
wouldn’t
have plucked it off, God bless my soul! to save my life. As to
measuring her
waist in sport, as they did, bold young brood, I couldn’t have done it;
I
should have expected my arm to have grown round it for a punishment,
and never
come straight again. And yet I should have dearly liked, I own, to have
touched
her lips; to have questioned her, that she might have opened them; to
have
looked upon the lashes of her downcast eyes, and never raised a blush;
to have
let loose waves of hair, an inch of which would be a keepsake beyond
price: in
short, I should have liked, I do confess, to have had the lightest
licence of a
child, and yet to have been man enough to know its value.
But now a knocking at the
door was heard, and such a rush immediately
ensued that she with laughing face and plundered dress was borne
towards it the
centre of a flushed and boisterous group, just in time to greet the
father, who
came home attended by a man laden with Christmas toys and presents.
Then the
shouting and the struggling, and the onslaught that was made on the
defenceless
porter! The scaling him with chairs for ladders to dive into his
pockets,
despoil him of brown-paper parcels, hold on tight by his cravat, hug
him round
his neck, pommel his back, and kick his legs in irrepressible
affection! The
shouts of wonder and delight with which the development of every
package was
received! The terrible announcement that the baby had been taken in the
act of
putting a doll’s frying-pan into his mouth, and was more than suspected
of
having swallowed a fictitious turkey, glued on a wooden platter! The
immense
relief of finding this a false alarm! The joy, and gratitude, and
ecstasy! They
are all indescribable alike. It is enough that by degrees the children
and
their emotions got out of the parlour, and by one stair at a time, up
to the
top of the house; where they went to bed, and so subsided.
And now Scrooge looked on
more attentively than ever, when the master of
the house, having his daughter leaning fondly on him, sat down with her
and her
mother at his own fireside; and when he thought that such another
creature,
quite as graceful and as full of promise, might have called him father,
and
been a spring-time in the haggard winter of his life, his sight grew
very dim
indeed.
“Belle,” said the
husband, turning to his wife with a smile, “I saw an
old friend of yours this afternoon.”
“Who was it?”
“Guess!”
“How can I? Tut, don’t I
know?” she added in the same breath, laughing
as he laughed. “Mr. Scrooge.”
“Mr. Scrooge it was. I
passed his office window; and as it was not shut
up, and he had a candle inside, I could scarcely help seeing him. His
partner
lies upon the point of death, I hear; and there he sat alone. Quite
alone in
the world, I do believe.”
“Spirit!” said Scrooge in
a broken voice, “remove me from this place.”
“I told you these were
shadows of the things that have been,” said the
Ghost. “That they are what they are, do not blame me!”
“Remove me!” Scrooge
exclaimed, “I cannot bear it!”
He turned upon the Ghost,
and seeing that it looked upon him with a
face, in which in some strange way there were fragments of all the
faces it had
shown him, wrestled with it.
“Leave me! Take me back.
Haunt me no longer!”
In the struggle, if that
can be called a struggle in which the Ghost
with no visible resistance on its own part was undisturbed by any
effort of its
adversary, Scrooge observed that its light was burning high and bright;
and
dimly connecting that with its influence over him, he seized the
extinguisher-cap, and by a sudden action pressed it down upon its head.
The Spirit dropped
beneath it, so that the extinguisher covered its
whole form; but though Scrooge pressed it down with all his force, he
could not
hide the light: which streamed from under it, in an unbroken flood upon
the
ground.
He was conscious of being
exhausted, and overcome by an irresistible
drowsiness; and, further, of being in his own bedroom. He gave the cap
a
parting squeeze, in which his hand relaxed; and had barely time to reel
to bed,
before he sank into a heavy sleep.
Scrooge
Extinguishes the First of the Three Spirits
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