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Chapter XX Wherein the Elder Ammon Offers Advice, and Edith Carr Experiences Regrets PHILIP
AMMON walked from among his friends a humiliated and a wounded man. Never
before had Edith Carr appeared quite so beautiful. All evening she had treated
him with unusual consideration. Never had he loved her so deeply. Then in a few
seconds everything was different. Seeing the change in her face, and hearing
her meaningless accusations, killed something in his heart. Warmth went out and
a cold weight took its place. But even after that, he had offered the ring to
her again, and asked her before others to reconsider. The answer had been
further insult. He walked,
paying no heed to where he went. He had traversed many miles when he became
aware that his feet had chosen familiar streets. He was passing his home. Dawn
was near, but the first floor was lighted. He staggered up the steps and was
instantly admitted. The library door stood open, while his father sat with a
book pretending to read. At Philip's entrance the father scarcely glanced up. "Come
on!" he called. "I have just told Banks to bring me a cup of coffee
before I turn in. Have one with me!" Philip sat beside
the table and leaned his head on his hands, but he drank a cup of steaming
coffee and felt better. "Father,"
he said, "father, may I talk with you a little while?" "Of
course," answered Mr. Ammon. "I am not at all tired. I think I must
have been waiting in the hope that you would come. I want no one's version of
this but yours. Tell me the straight of the thing, Phil." Philip told
all he knew, while his father sat in deep thought. "On my
life I can't see any occasion for such a display of temper, Phil. It passed all
bounds of reason and breeding. Can't you think of anything more?" "I
cannot!" "Polly
says every one expected you to carry the moth you caught to Edith. Why didn't
you?" "She
screams if a thing of that kind comes near her. She never has taken the
slightest interest in them. I was in a big hurry. I didn't want to miss one
minute of my dance with her. The moth was not so uncommon, but by a combination
of bad luck it had become the rarest in America for a friend of mine, who is
making a collection to pay college expenses. For an instant last June the
series was completed; when a woman's uncontrolled temper ruined this specimen
and the search for it began over. A few days later a pair was secured, and
again the money was in sight for several hours. Then an accident wrecked
one-fourth of the collection. I helped replace those last June, all but this
Yellow Emperor which we could not secure, and we haven't been able to find, buy
or trade for one since. So my friend was compelled to teach this past winter
instead of going to college. When that moth came flying in there to-night, it
seemed to me like fate. All I thought of was, that to secure it would complete
the collection and secure the money. So I caught the Emperor and started it to
Elnora. I declare to you that I was not out of the pavilion over three minutes
at a liberal estimate. If I only had thought to speak to the orchestra! I was
sure I would be back before enough couples gathered and formed for the
dance." The eyes of
the father were very bright. "The
friend for whom you wanted the moth is a girl?" he asked indifferently, as
he ran the book leaves through his fingers. "The
girl of whom I wrote you last summer, and told you about in the fall. I helped
her all the time I was away." "Did
Edith know of her?" "I
tried many times to tell her, to interest her, but she was so indifferent that
it was insulting. She would not hear me." "We
are neither one in any condition to sleep. Why don't you begin at the first and
tell me about this girl? To think of other matters for a time may clear our
vision for a sane solution of this. Who is she, just what is she doing, and
what is she like? You know I was reared among those Limberlost people, I can
understand readily. What is her name and where does she live?" Philip gave
a man's version of the previous summer, while his father played with the book
industriously. "You
are very sure as to her refinement and education?" "In
almost two months' daily association, could a man be mistaken? She can far and
away surpass Polly, Edith, or any girl of our set on any common, high school,
or supplementary branch, and you know high schools have French, German, and
physics now. Besides, she is a graduate of two other institutions. All her life
she has been in the school of Hard Knocks. She has the biggest, tenderest, most
human heart I ever knew in a girl. She has known life in its most cruel phases,
and instead of hardening her, it has set her trying to save other people
suffering. Then this nature position of which I told you; she graduated in the
School of the Woods, before she secured that. The Bird Woman, whose work you
know, helped her there. Elnora knows more interesting things in a minute than
any other girl I ever met knew in an hour, provided you are a person who cares
to understand plant and animal life." The book
leaves slid rapidly through his fingers as the father drawled: "What sort
of looking girl is she?" "Tall
as Edith, a little heavier, pink, even complexion, wide open blue-gray eyes
with heavy black brows, and lashes so long they touch her cheeks. She has a
rope of waving, shining hair that makes a real crown on her head, and it
appears almost red in the light. She is as handsome as any fair woman I ever
saw, but she doesn't know it. Every time any one pays her a compliment, her
mother, who is a caution, discovers that, for some reason, the girl is a
fright, so she has no appreciation of her looks." "And
you were in daily association two months with a girl like that! How about it,
Phil?" "If
you mean, did I trifle with her, no!" cried Philip hotly. "I told her
the second time I met her all about Edith. Almost every day I wrote to Edith in
her presence. Elnora gathered violets and made a fancy basket to put them in
for Edith's birthday. I started to err in too open admiration for Elnora, but
her mother brought me up with a whirl I never forgot. Fifty times a day in the
swamps and forests Elnora made a perfect picture, but I neither looked nor said
anything. I never met any girl so downright noble in bearing and actions. I
never hated anything as I hated leaving her, for we were dear friends, like two
wholly congenial men. Her mother was almost always with us. She knew how much I
admired Elnora, but so long as I concealed it from the girl, the mother did not
care." "Yet
you left such a girl and came back whole-hearted to Edith Carr!" "Surely!
You know how it has been with me about Edith all my life." "Yet
the girl you picture is far her superior to an unprejudiced person, when
thinking what a man would require in a wife to be happy." "I
never have thought what I would 'require' to be happy! I only thought whether I
could make Edith happy. I have been an idiot! What I've borne you'll never
know! To-night is only one of many outbursts like that, in varying and lesser
degrees." "Phil,
I love you, when you say you have thought only of Edith! I happen to know that
it is true. You are my only son, and I have had a right to watch you closely. I
believe you utterly. Any one who cares for you as I do, and has had my years of
experience in this world over yours, knows that in some ways, to-night would be
a blessed release, if you could take it; but you cannot! Go to bed now, and
rest. To-morrow, go back to her and fix it up." "You
heard what I said when I left her! I said it because something in my heart died
a minute before that, and I realized that it was my love for Edith Carr. Never
again will I voluntarily face such a scene. If she can act like that at a ball,
before hundreds, over a thing of which I thought nothing at all, she would go
into actual physical fits and spasms, over some of the household crises I've
seen the mater meet with a smile. Sir, it is truth that I have thought only of
her up to the present. Now, I will admit I am thinking about myself. Father,
did you see her? Life is too short, and it can be too sweet, to throw it away
in a battle with an unrestrained woman. I am no fighter — where a girl is
concerned, anyway. I respect and love her or I do nothing. Never again is
either respect or love possible between me and Edith Carr. Whenever I think of
her in the future, I will see her as she was to-night. But I can't face the
crowd just yet. Could you spare me a few days?" "It is
only ten days until you were to go north for the summer, go now." "I
don't want to go north. I don't want to meet people I know. There, the story
would precede me. I do not need pitying glances or rough condolences. I wonder
if I could not hide at Uncle Ed's in Wisconsin for awhile?" The book
closed suddenly. The father leaned across the table and looked into the son's
eyes. "Phil,
are you sure of what you just have said?" "Perfectly
sure!" "Do
you think you are in any condition to decide to-night?" "Death
cannot return to life, father. My love for Edith Carr is dead. I hope never to
see her again." "If I
thought you could be certain so soon! But, come to think of it, you are very
like me in many ways. I am with you in this. Public scenes and disgraces I
would not endure. It would be over with me, were I in your position, that I
know." "It is
done for all time," said Philip Ammon. "Let us not speak of it
further." "Then,
Phil," the father leaned closer and looked at the son tenderly, "Phil,
why don't you go to the Limberlost?" "Father!"
"Why
not? No one can comfort a hurt heart like a tender woman; and, Phil, have you
ever stopped to think that you may have a duty in the Limberlost, if you are
free? I don't know! I only suggest it. But, for a country schoolgirl,
unaccustomed to men, two months with a man like you might well awaken feelings
of which you do not think. Because you were safe-guarded is no sign the girl
was. She might care to see you. You can soon tell. With you, she comes next to
Edith, and you have made it clear to me that you appreciate her in many ways
above. So I repeat it, why not go to the Limberlost?" A long time
Philip Ammon sat in deep thought. At last he raised his head. "Well,
why not!" he said. "Years could make me no surer than I am now, and
life is short. Please ask Banks to get me some coffee and toast, and I will
bathe and dress so I can take the early train." "Go to
your bath. I will attend to your packing and everything. And Phil, if I were
you, I would leave no addresses." "Not
an address!" said Philip. "Not even Polly." When the
train pulled out, the elder Ammon went home to find Hart Henderson waiting. "Where
is Phil?" he demanded. "He
did not feel like facing his friends at present, and I am just back from
driving him to the station. He said he might go to Siam, or Patagonia. He would
leave no address." Henderson
almost staggered. "He's not gone? And left no address? You don't mean it!
He'll never forgive her!" "Never
is a long time, Hart," said Mr. Ammon. "And it seems even longer to
those of us who are well acquainted with Phil. Last night was not the last
straw. It was the whole straw-stack. It crushed Phil so far as she is concerned.
He will not see her again voluntarily, and he will not forget if he does. You
can take it from him, and from me, we have accepted the lady's decision. Will
you have a cup of coffee?" Twice
Henderson opened his lips to speak of Edith Carr's despair. Twice he looked
into the stern, inflexible face of Mr. Ammon and could not betray her. He held
out the ring. "I
have no instructions as to that," said the elder Ammon, drawing back.
"Possibly Miss Carr would have it as a keepsake." "I am
sure not," said Henderson curtly. "Then
suppose you return it to Peacock. I will phone him. He will give you the price
of it, and you might add it to the children's Fresh Air Fund. We would be
obliged if you would do that. No one here cares to handle the object." "As
you choose," said Henderson. "Good morning!" Then he
went to his home, but he could not think of sleep. He ordered breakfast, but he
could not eat. He paced the library for a time, but it was too small. Going on
the streets he walked until exhausted, then he called a hansom and was driven
to his club. He had thought himself familiar with every depth of suffering;
that night had taught him that what he felt for himself was not to be compared
with the anguish which wrung his heart over the agony of Edith Carr. He tried
to blame Philip Ammon, but being an honest man, Henderson knew that was unjust.
The fault lay wholly with her, but that only made it harder for him, as he
realized it would in time for her. As he
sauntered into the room an attendant hurried to him. "You
are wanted most urgently at the 'phone, Mr. Henderson," he said. "You
have had three calls from Main 5770." Henderson
shivered as he picked down the receiver and gave the call. "Is
that you, Hart?" came Edith's voice. "Yes."
"Did
you find Phil?" "No."
"Did
you try?" "Yes.
As soon as I left you I went straight there." "Wasn't
he home yet?" "He
has been home and gone again." "Gone!"
The cry
tore Henderson's heart. "Shall
I come and tell you, Edith?" "No!
Tell me now." "When
I reached the house Banks said Mr. Ammon and Phil were out in the motor, so I
waited. Mr. Ammon came back soon. Edith, are you alone?" "Yes.
Go on!" "Call
your maid. I can't tell you until some one is with you." "Tell
me instantly!" "Edith,
he said he had been to the station. He said Phil had started to Siam or
Patagonia, he didn't know which, and left no address. He said —" Distinctly
Henderson heard her fall. He set the buzzer ringing, and in a few seconds heard
voices, so he knew she had been found. Then he crept into a private den and
shook with a hard, nervous chill. The next
day Edith Carr started on her trip to Europe. Henderson felt certain she hoped
to meet Philip there. He was sure she would be disappointed, though he had no
idea where Ammon could have gone. But after much thought he decided he would
see Edith soonest by remaining at home, so he spent the summer in Chicago. |