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CHAPTER I. ON a gray,
cold, soggy Tibetan plateau stood glaring at one another two white
people — a
man and a woman. With the
first, a group of peasants; with the second, the guides and carriers of
a
well-equipped exploring party. The man
wore the dress of a peasant, but around him was a leather belt — old,
worn,
battered — but a recognizable belt of no Asiatic pattern, and showing a
heavy
buckle made in twisted initials. The
woman's eye had caught the sunlight on this buckle before she saw that
the
heavily bearded face under the hood was white. She pressed forward to
look at
it. "Where
did you get that belt?" she cried, turning for the interpreter to urge
her
question. The man
had caught her voice, her words. He threw
back his hood and looked at her, with a strange blank look, as of one
listening
to something far away. "John!"
she cried. "John! My Brother!" He lifted
a groping hand to his head, made a confused noise that ended in almost
a shout
of "Nellie!" reeled and fell backward. *
*
* When one
loses his mind, as it were, for thirty years, and finds it again; when
one
wakes up; comes to life; recognizes oneself an American citizen
twenty-five
years old — *
*
* No. This
is what I find it so hard to realize. I am not twenty-five; I am
fifty-five. Well, as I
was saying, when one comes to life again like this, and has to renew
acquaintance with one's own mind, in a sudden swarming rush of hurrying
memories that is a good deal of pressure for a brain so long unused. But when
on top of that, one is pushed headlong into a world immeasurably
different from
the world one has left at twenty-five — a
topsy-turvy world, wherein all one's most cherished ideals are found to
be
reversed, rearranged, or utterly gone; where strange new facts are
accompanied
by strange new thoughts and strange new feelings — the pressure becomes
terrific. Nellie has
suggested that I write it down, and I think for once she is right. I
disagree
with her on so many points that I am glad to recognize the wisdom of
this idea.
It will certainly be a useful process in my re-education; and relieve
the
mental tension. So, to
begin with my first life, being now in my third — *
*
* I am the only son of a Methodist minister
of South
Carolina. My mother was a Yankee. She died after my sister Ellen was
born, when
I was seven years old. My father educated me well. I was sent to a
small Southern
college, and showed such a talent for philology that I specialized in
ancient
languages, and, after some teaching and the taking of various degrees,
I had a
wonderful opportunity to join an expedition into India and Tibet. I was
eager
for a sight of those venerable races, those hoary scriptures, those
time-honored customs. We were traveling through the Himalayas — and the
last
thing I remember was a night camp, and a six-months-old newspaper from
home. We
had rejoicingly obtained it from a party we met in the pass. It was read and re-read by all of us —
even the
advertisements — even the editorials, and in one of these I learned
that Mrs.
Eddy had been dead some time and that another religion had burst forth
and was
sweeping the country, madly taken up by the women. That was my last
news item.
I suppose it was this reading, and the discussions we had, that made me
walk in
my sleep that night. That is the only explanation I can give. I know I
lay down
just as I was — and that's all I know, until Nellie found me. The party reported me lost. They searched
for days,
made what inquiry they could. No faintest clue was ever found.
Himalayan
precipices are very tall, and very sudden. My sister Nellie was
traveling in
Tibet and found me, with a party of peasants. She gathered what she
could from
them, through interpreters. It seems that I fell among those people —
literally; bruised, stunned, broken, but not dead. Some merciful — or
shall I
say unmerciful? — trees had softened the fall and let me down easy,
comparatively
speaking. They were good people — Buddhists. They mended my bones and
cared for
me, and it appears made me quite a chief man, in course of time, in
their tiny
village. But their little valley was so remote and unknown, so out of
touch
with any and everything, that no tale of this dumb white man ever
reached
Western ears. I was dumb until I learned their language, was "as a
child
of a day," they said — knew absolutely nothing. They taught me what
they
knew. I suppose I turned a prayer mill; I suppose I was married —
Nellie didn't
ask that, and they never mentioned such a detail. Furthermore, they
gave so dim
an account of where the place was that we don’t know now; should have
to locate
that night’s encampment, and then look for a precipice and go down it
with
ropes. As I have
no longer any interest in those venerable races and time-honored
customs, I
think we will not do this. Well, she
found me, and something happened. She says I knew her — shouted
"Nellie!" and fell down — fell on a stone, too, and hit my head so
hard they thought I was dead this time "for sure." But when I
"came to" I came all the way, back to where I was thirty years ago;
and as for those thirty years — I do not remember one day of them. Nor do I
wish to. I have those filthy Tibetan clothes, sterilized and packed
away, but I
never want to look at them. I am back
in the real world, back where I was at twenty-five. But now I am
fifty-five — *
*
* Now, about
Nellie. I must go slowly and get this thing straightened out for good
and all. My little
sister! I was always fond of her, and she adored me. She looked up to
me,
naturally; believed everything I told her; minded me like a little dog
— when
she was a child. And as she grew into girlhood, I had a strong
restraining
influence upon her. She wanted to be educated — to go to college — but
father
wouldn't hear of it, of course, and I backed him up. If there is
anything on
earth I always hated and despised, it is a strong-minded woman! That is
— it was.
I certainly cannot hate and despise my sister Nellie. Now it
appears that soon after my departure from this life father died, very
suddenly.
Nellie inherited the farm — and the farm turned out to be a mine, and
the mine
turned out to be worth a good deal of money. So that
poor child, having no natural guardian or protector, just set to work
for
herself — went to college to her heart's content, to a foreign
university, too.
She studied medicine, practiced a while, then was offered a chair in a
college
and took it; then — I hate to write it — but she is now president of a
college
— a co-educational college! "Don't
you mean 'dean?'" I asked her. "No,"
she said. "There is a dean of the girl's building — but I am the
president." My, little
sister! *
*
* The worst
of it is that my little sister is now forty-eight, and I — to all
intents and
purposes — am twenty-five! She is twenty-three years older than I am.
She has
had thirty years of world-life which I have missed entirely, and this
thirty
years, I begin to gather, has covered more changes than an ordinary
century or
two. It is
lucky about that mine. "At
least I shall not have to worry about money," I said to her when she
told
me about our increased fortune. She gave
one of those queer little smiles, as if she had something up her
sleeve, and
said: "No;
you won't have to worry in the least about money." *
*
* Having all
that medical skill of hers in the background, she took excellent care
of me up
there on those dreary plains and hills,
brought me back to the coast by easy stages, and home on one of those
new
steamers — but I mustn't stop to describe the details of each new thing
I
notice! I have
sense enough myself, even if I'm not a doctor, to use my mind
gradually, not to
swallow too fast, as it were. Nellie is
a little inclined to manage me. I don't know as I blame her. I do feel
like a
child, sometimes. It is so humiliating not to know little common things
such as
everybody else knows. Air ships I expected, of course; they had started
before
I left. They are common enough, all sizes. But water is still the
cheaper route
— as well as slower. Nellie
said she didn't want me to get home too quick; she wanted time to
explain
things. So we spent long, quiet hours in our steamer chairs, talking
things
over. It's no
use asking about the family; there is only a flock of young cousins and
"once removed" now; the aunts and uncles are mostly gone. Uncle Jake
is left. Nellie grins wickedly when she mentions him. "If
things get too hard on you, John, you can go down to Uncle Jake's and
rest up.
He and Aunt Dorcas haven't moved an inch.
They fairly barricade their minds against a new idea — and he ploughs
and she
cooks up on that little mountain farm just as they always did. People
go to see
them — " "Why
shouldn't they?" I asked. And she smiled that queer little smile again.
"I
mean they go to see them as if they were the Pyramids." "I
see," said I. "I might as well prepare for some preposterous nightmare
of a world, like — what was that book of Wells', 'The Sleeper
Awakened?'" "Oh,
yes; I remember that book," she answered, "and a lot of others.
People were already guessing about things as they might be, weren't
they? But
what never struck any of them was that the people themselves could
change." "No,"
I agreed. "You can't alter human nature." Nellie
laughed — laughed out loud. Then she squeezed my hand and patted it. "You
Dear!" she said. "You precious old Long-Lost Brother! When you get
too utterly upset I'll wear my hair down, put on a short dress and let
you boss
me awhile — to keep your spirits up. That was just the phrase, wasn't
it? —
'You can't alter human nature!' " And she laughed again. There is
something queer about Nellie — very queer. It is not only that she is
different
from my little sister — that's natural; but she is different from any
woman of
forty-eight I ever saw — from any woman of any age I ever saw. In the
first place, she doesn't look old — not at all. Women of forty, in our
region,
were old women, and Nellie's near fifty! Then she isn't — what shall I
call it
— dependent; not the least in the world. As soon as I became really
conscious,
and strong enough to be of any use, and began to offer her those little
services and attentions due to a woman, I noticed this difference. She is
brisk, firm, assured — not unpleasantly so; I don't mean a thing of
that sort;
but somehow like — almost like a man! No, I certainly don't mean that.
She is
not in the least mannish, nor in the least self-assertive; but she
takes things
so easily — as if she owned them. *
*
* I suppose
it will be some time before my head is absolutely clear and strong as
it used
to be. I tire rather easily. Nellie is very reassuring about it. She
says it
will take about a year to re-establish connections and renew mental
processes.
She advises me to read and talk only a little every day, to sleep all I
can,
and not to worry. "You'll
be all right soon, my dear," she says, "and plenty of life before
you. You seem to have led a very healthy out-door life. You're really
well and
strong — and as good-looking as ever." At least
she hasn't forgotten that woman's chief duty is to please. "And
the world is a much better place to we in than it was," she assured me.
"Things will surprise you, of course — things I have gotten used to and
shall forget to tell you about. But the changes are all good ones, and
you'll
soon get — acclimated. You're young yet." That's
where Nellie slips up. She cannot help having me in mind as the brave
young
brother she knew. She forgets that I am an old man now. Finally I told
her
that. "No,
John Robertson," she she, "that's where you are utterly wrong. Of
course, you don't know what we're doing about age —
how differently we feel. As a matter of
physiology we find that about one hundred and fifty ought to be our
natural
limit; and that with proper conditions we can easily get to be a
hundred now.
Ever so many do." "I
don't want to be a hundred," I protested. "I saw a man of
ninety-eight once, and never want to be one." "It's
not like that now," she said. "I mean we live to be a hundred and
enjoy life still — 'keep our faculties,' as they used to put it. Why,
the
ship's doctor here is eighty-seven." This surprised
me a good deal. I had talked a little with this man, and had thought
him about
sixty. "Then
a man of a hundred, according to your story, would look like — like — "
"Like
Grandpa Ely," she offered. I
remembered my mother's father — a tall, straight, hale old man of
seventy-five.
He had a clear eye, a firm step, a rosy color in his face. Well, that
wasn't so
bad a prospect. "I
consent to be a hundred — on those terms," I told her. She talked
to me a good bit, in small daily doses, of the more general changes in
the
world, showed me new maps, even let me read a little in the current
magazines. "I
suppose you have a million of these now," I said. "There were
thousands when I left!" "No,"
she answered. "There are fewer, I believe; but much better." I turned
over the one in my hand. It was pleasantly light and thin, it opened
easily,
the paper and presswork were of the best, the price was twenty-five
cents. "Is
this a cheap one — at a higher price? or have the best ones come down?"
"It's
a cheap one," she told me, "if you mean by that a popular one, and
it's cheap enough. They have all of a million subscribers." "And
what's the difference, beyond the paper and print?" I asked. "The
pictures are good." I looked
it through again. "Yes,
very good, much improved. But I don't see anything phenomenal — unless
it is
the absence of advertisements." Nellie
took it out of my hand and ran it over. "Just
read some of that," she said. "Read this story — and this article —
and that." So I sat
reading in the sunny silence, the gulls wheeling and dipping just as
they used
to, and the wide purple ocean just as changeable — and changeless — as
ever. One of the
articles was on an extension of municipal-service, and involved so much
comment
on preceding steps that I found it most enlightening. The other was a
recent
suggestion in educational psychology, and this too carried a retrospect
of
recent progress which gave me food for thought. The story was a clever
one. I
found it really amusing, and only on a second reading did I find what
it was
that gave the queer flavor to it. It was a story about women — two
women who
were in business partnership, with their adventures, singly and
together. I looked
through it carefully. They were not even girls, they were not handsome,
they
were not in process of being married — in fact, it was not once
mentioned
whether they were married or not, ever had been or ever wanted to be.
Yet I had
found it amusing! I laid the
magazine on my rug-bound knees and meditated. A queer sick feeling came
over me
— mental, not physical. I looked through the magazine again. It was not
what I
should have called "a woman's magazine," yet the editor was a woman,
most of the contributors were women, and in all the subject matter I
began to detect
allusions and references of tremendous import. Presently
Nellie came to see how I was getting on. I saw her approaching, a firm,
brisk
figure, well and becomingly dressed, with a tailored trimness and
convenience,
far indeed from the slim, graceful, yielding girl I had once been so
proud to
protect and teach. "How
soon do we get in, Lady Manager?" I asked her. "Day
after to-morrow," she answered back promptly — not a word about going
to
see, or asking anyone! "Well,
ma'am, I want you to sit down here and tell me things — right now. What
am I to
expect? Are there no men left in America?" She
laughed gaily. "No
men! Why, bless you, there are as many men as there are women, and a
few more,
I believe. Not such an over-plus as there used to be, but some to spare
still.
We had a million and a half extra in your day, you know." "I'm
glad to learn we're allowed to live!" said I. "Now tell me the worst
— are the men all doing the housework?" "You
call that 'the worst,' do you?" inquired Nellie, cocking her head to
one
side and looking at me affectionately, and yet quizzically. "Well, I
guess
it was — pretty near 'the worst!' No dear, men are doing just as many
kinds of
business as they ever were." I heaved a
sigh of relief and chucked my magazine under the chair. "I'd
begun to think there weren't any men left. And they still wear
trousers, don't
they?" She
laughed outright. "Oh,
yes. They wear just as many trousers as they did before." "And
what do the women wear," I demanded suspiciously. "Whatever
kind of clothing their work demands," she answered. "Their
work? What kind of work do they do?" "All
kinds — anything they like." I groaned
and shut my eyes. I could see the world as I left it, with only a small
proportion of malcontents and a large majority of contented and happy
homes;
and then I saw this awful place I was coming to, with strange,
masculine women
and subdued men. "How
does it happen that there aren't any on this ship?" I inquired. "Any
what?" asked Nellie. "Any
of these — New Women?" "Why,
there are. They're all new, except Mrs. Talbot. She's older than I am,
and
rather reactionary." This Mrs.
Talbot was a stiff, pious, narrow-minded old lady, and I had liked her
the
least of any on board. "Do
you mean to tell me that pretty Mrs. Exeter is — one of this new kind?"
"Mrs.
Exeter owns — and manages — a large store, if that is what you mean." "And
those pretty Borden girls?" "They
do house decorating — have been abroad on business." "And
Mrs. Green — and Miss Sandwich?" "One
of them is a hat designer, one a teacher. This is toward the end of
vacation,
and they're all coming home, you see." "And
Miss Elwell?" Miss
Elwell was quite the prettiest woman on board, and seemed to have
plenty of
attention — just like the girls I remembered. "Miss
Elwell is a civil engineer," said my sister. "It's
horrid," I said. "It's perfectly horrid! And aren't there any women
left?" "There's
Aunt Dorcas," said Nellie, mischievously, "and Cousin Drusilla. You
remember Drusilla?" |